I'm kind of feeling like from 20-23 will be my huge figuring out my shit years. Like right now I have no clue what I want for dinner and the hell what I want to do in life right now. It's obvious I want to end up writing and doing something I love in a place I love but like how do I even get there?
You know that feeling when you're on a swing with everyone and it's decided that you're all going to jump? And there's always that one person that just doesn't get enough momentum and speed and when they jump they just fall flat on their face. Then there's the person who isn't going to jump at all. Then there is the swinger who is so smart about their movements and when they finally fly through the air they land perfectly. And me, I'm like all three of these people but like at different stages. And I have no idea how to just be one, you know?
It's like if I stay in Ottawa I'm just being safe and I just tell myself it's for right now and I'm making money. I have no idea why I don't just get like two jobs and work my ass off and just get myself to Toronto or New York or Vancouver or something (because I miss my friend. Hi CARL). One big thing is my dog because like how many apartments can I rent that
1. Is in a location that works for me and a roommate?
2. Allows pets?
3. Affordable?
I also want wine so that's what I'll have instead for now. Bye.
You know that feeling when you're on a swing with everyone and it's decided that you're all going to jump? And there's always that one person that just doesn't get enough momentum and speed and when they jump they just fall flat on their face. Then there's the person who isn't going to jump at all. Then there is the swinger who is so smart about their movements and when they finally fly through the air they land perfectly. And me, I'm like all three of these people but like at different stages. And I have no idea how to just be one, you know?
It's like if I stay in Ottawa I'm just being safe and I just tell myself it's for right now and I'm making money. I have no idea why I don't just get like two jobs and work my ass off and just get myself to Toronto or New York or Vancouver or something (because I miss my friend. Hi CARL). One big thing is my dog because like how many apartments can I rent that
1. Is in a location that works for me and a roommate?
2. Allows pets?
3. Affordable?
I also want wine so that's what I'll have instead for now. Bye.